Passion. I am quite disappointed at myself for letting all these wonderful days pass by without posting in this blog. I love reflecting about my day and highlighting the important parts. So, this blog post will be very different from the other posts. I do not quite recall what happened in the past week and half, so I will just post photos and explain them.
07/30
I had a lovely salad for dinner with delicious bread. We even had a karaoke night and sang to our hearts content. I can't believe how much I missed fresh greens! This was probably one of the healthiest meals that I have eaten here. There are a lot of veg options, but 90% of the time, I have no clue what they are!
07/31
One of my friends sent me this art that they made on their rooftop. So, I started thinking about what the word meant. The dictionary definition is: (v.) to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something). But, the word means so much more to me. If applied to my life, I think about how every memory, every experience and every person that we encounter "changes" us. And, on an optimistic and pessimistic perspective, our lives continue to change. So, even though we are the "product of our circumstances", the feelings that we go through will change sooner or later. With this whole internship, I cannot believe that I will soon go back to my SF lifestyle. But, it will be different. I think and act differently now, and other people might not adapt to that change in me. However, change is good because that is how we grow and define ourselves.
08/01
I started this Saturday morning with a Skype call with my favorite people. Then, I got ready to go for Dominos and a Vijetha trip. Honestly, this has been one of my favorite weekends. I spent most of it with Gabby, but we found out that we are practically the same person. It is honestly so scary. But, I have mad respect for her for calling me out on things that I do wrong. And, she does not do it in a condescending way, but rather in a bigger sister tone. Plus, she is very passionate about her culture and her stories about Jamaica influence me to go back home. I hope that I can book a ticket for this weekend to the Philippines! This December will be my 10th year in the US, and I am dedicated to save money to go back home. Well, bottom line, Gabby is basically my evil twin.
08/02
There is so many beautiful and not-so-great things about this photo. Well, this is our ICRISAT family photo with Titu, the dog. This photo makes all of us look so rich (I think it is the dog). After this internship, I am going to look back to this photo and reminisce on all the experiences and memories of the ICRISAT 2015 interns, PhD students and staff. I never learned the importance of conversations until this internship. I never fully grasped the meaning of "fighting the power" until this internship. I never desired to get back to my roots until this internship. And, these people have a huge influence on all those positive effects. I am sad to say that I am leaving this family in a couple of days.
08/03
Gabby decided to cook for pasta for us because she is tired of her "Gabby meal". So, we feasted on pasta! Unfortunately, I can no longer eat dairy because it upsets my stomach. It is such a bummer because I love cheese and milk so much! I would honestly go cheese-tasting in Berkeley if that is available. Then, we played the wonderful game of Fishbowl, and Gabby and I defended our titles! I love how we win and we don't even cheat! We just have great group dynamics. Like, she understands my gestures and hints, and vice versa! And, we just laugh at the other people when they can't get our cards. Fishbowl is a must-play game for a big group of people! It is very friendly and easy to understand! But, make sure you are partner with someone that thinks like you, so you can easily win.
08/04
After a very tiring day at work, I went to say good-bye to Gretchen. I can't believe that Mariah and I are the next ones leaving! The thought of leaving just scares me. I think it is a bittersweet feeling, but more on the bitter side.
Then, I went for a very long with Gabby. This blog post basically just rants about my hangouts with Gabby. Well, it was a great de-stresser because work has been slowly killing me. And, I didn't even think about my "to-do list". I put a table on it and just enjoyed the walk, and came across this beautiful view. It reminded me of the San Francisco landscapes, and I can't wait to see those again. Views of skyscrapers just make me think some type of way. I don't just think about their beauty, but how they are made by mankind. And, I think about the history that comes with the views. I was pretty surprised to see the faint and glistening lights that twinkled on this dark night. Above all that, I had great company to share late night conversations and late night simpin'.
08/05
I have almost reached my stress point. While talking to Gabbie (my sister), I could not help but think about all the things left for my project. I spent the past two days writing my report, and now, I have a day and a half to finish my presentation. I just constantly think about my project even when I am facetiming my sister. I want this feeling to go away.
08/06
In the morning, I finished my prezi presentation. After lunch, I presented to Dr. Bantilan and Padmaja. I felt so drained during the whole presentation because I only had 5 hours of sleep. For the past 2 days, I have been sleeping at 2 or 3 AM because of this stressful project. And, I am only stressing about this because I am passionate with my topic. I am not only doing this report for myself, but also for the SHG leaders of Dokur. They have inspired me with their words and their work. And, giving my best regarding this project is my way of thanking them for their impact in my life. So, yes, I will stress about it because I care.
Oh, and happy Jamaican Independence Day! Gabby came over to cook superb chicken and Johnny cakes (?). My plate doesn't seem to have as much food, but that actually made me full! I wished that I was able to help her cook, but I had to work on my project. Then, I left dinner to finalize my report. I did a run-through and that gave me more confidence, but I was still nervous. I just need to use my antsy feelings for my advantage. As I said, I only feel this way because I care about my project. If I did not, I would not put in all the extra hours that make me extremely tired. At this point, I have done everything that I could, and I am just going to continue trying my best, and pray that shows tomorrow.
Nice experiences
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